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Friday, 17 July 2009

  • Hour of the Thief

    I saw an old man sitting alone in a family restaurant tonight, and I lacked the courage to go and sit with him...
    This is common actually... I'm sitting down with friends or family enjoying their company during a meal. We sit, and talk, and pray to God. We eat together in joy and laughter. While not far from me someone sits in silence, alone.
    Often it's old men, widowers i sometimes think. Sitting there in their booth eating a meal, maybe a burger or a steak with fries on the side. It's almost always a meal, and a place, that i wouldn't have/go to without friends or loved ones.

    Always, always i entertain the thought of sitting over by them, or at least asking "is this seat taken?" ... but i don't. I tell myself I'll just be bothering him, he wants to be alone. Or that it'll be awkward to approach them out of the blue, i mean... i don't know this guy! ... but when i leave, those thoughts don't change the feeling in my gut. The one that says "maybe... maybe he wanted to be alone... what if he didn't?"

Sunday, 07 December 2008

  • The Unexpected Posting

     Hello friends, it's been far too long since i've written here... live often gets quite busy, but my neglect of this site is hardly passable.

    Life in short: Still attending NCC, in my sophomore year.  Classes, classes, Church, more classes.  I'm still going to the Benson Church, where I've been teaching an adult Sunday school class for the past 12 weeks or so, and have begun helping out on Wednesdays with a ministry in Atlantic IA playing with kids at the YMCA, it's pretty fun actually.  Recently got a job in sales, which is going to be weird for me, but I can learn a lot so it won't be a waste.

    I recently went to the National Missionary Convention in Tulsa Oklahoma, and it was amazing.  Not amazing because of a show or lights and sound, but amazing to see people from all over the world saying the same thing that I've been witnessing at Benson... God is moving...
    I wish i could write more, or some stunning message that would turn heads and change minds, but all i can really write is that God is moving, and prayers works... and often those two go hand in hand. 
    It's one thing to read a post and hear the God is moving and lives are being changed... the poor are being helped and the hungry fed, slaves set free, evil beaten back and the Light spreading over broken hearts and lives.... But entirely another to actually witness it. I would liken it to seeing what happens in a pitch black room...
    when the smallest of candles, is lit...

Wednesday, 14 May 2008

  • It's funny....sorta

    Funny, just when i get my site to look amazing with all the new stuff, i move to a college where it's blocked.  Just when it looks like i wanted it to all along, i have no readers or ways to write.  Just when it is "perfect" it's worthless to me.  I wrote what i could, when i could, and i thank God that i may have been used, even when it wasn't ideal.

    It's pointless to wait for the ideal situation, the perfect time, everything to be just right.  God doesn't need to work in the "perfect" situation.  If it's perfect, He's already there.  Holding out to do something until everything is perfect is an endeavor that will last literally until the end of time.  While we must be careful to choose good times to act, but we cannot allow small roadblocks to prevent us from taking action.
    When a city is under attack the army does not wait for sunshine to defend it, neither should we in our lives wait for perfect circumstances to do what needs to be done right now.  Often that means taking risks we are afraid to take and make sacrifices we may not have planed on.... often it takes courage we don't know if we possess.  But movement is need nonetheless.
    If leads you to do something, He leads you because the situation isn't ideal...isn't perfect... and He wants to change it through you.  Whether this is in the lives of those around you, or in your personal walk with him, there is no time to delay in doing what He requires.  It is pointless to wait for the ideal, for when it finally comes it will be too late.

    Free- Seek Christ,
    Heath Hansen

Tuesday, 08 January 2008

  • What is it about a fight that's so exciting?  A fight can bring out the best, or worst in us... often it depends which side of it we're on.  To some, like me, if we're not in the fight we lax in our training for that fight... and in a situation where the fight should be ongoing so should the training... so if we let one slip, so does the other.

    Why am i writing this? Because i feel that i have been playing too little a roll in "the fight" lately.  It's no one's fault but my own.  I need to be more active with my faith... James says there is no faith without deeds, and that speaks worlds to me.  More must be done, more must be sacrificed, and the fight must rage on. 
    Mindless babble, maybe, but to me it means something... hopefully you understand.  What's the point of LOOKING like i'm fighting, when in truth that's all i'm doing...looking.  Action, action i hear myself being called to... like a thousand times before.  To arms, to the front lines... that's where you're meant to be.  Sitting back has made me weak... and i can feel it.

    As I said before, it is on no shoulders but mine that i've allowed myself to weaken.  So again, i pray Lord give me stregnth, wisdom, passion and power.  To serve You until my breath runs dry so that when i've breathed my last i can say that even it was for you... because all too many of them haven't been... and it's time for change... renewal. A refocusing of myself... to be taken back to where You have always been calling me to. 
    This is not a re-commitment of the re-commitment of my re-commitment... rather a realization that i have strayed... and a prayer that you will strengthen me once more to do Your will.  Let it be my heart's desire.
    My purpose and my life are Yours... now to live that out.

    Heath

Sunday, 16 December 2007

  • Again, here i sit.

    Thank you to those who commented on my last post.  I appreciate the comments, although all out logical advice was not what was needed.  The blog was meant more to reflect inner thoughts than to plea to be told that to fall is human, i... and we... all know that well enough as it is.

    We had a lesson in Benson the other day that i really enjoyed teaching, and enjoyed being taught by God.  Walking the fine line between approval and disassociation.  Meaning, that when we are trying to be Christ like, we cannot approve of sin, but we cannot completely cut ourselves off from "sinners".  The contrast between Jesus eating with tax collectors, drunks, and prostitutes... and Saul holding the cloths of those who stoned Stephen, was shown to me as the best way to approach the subject.  While Christ came to the people on their level, in love, He never showed approval for the sin in which they lived.  But Saul clearly showed his blessing and approval on those that killed Stephen.
    We must love people where they are at, we must do all we can to reach them for Christ.  (and sometimes this takes a long time, huh?)  But at the same time we cannot show approval of the sin.  Once again, love is what it all comes down to.
    Like i said, i enjoyed being taught that, and passing it on.

    Break has started, i am hoping things go well.  I would appreciate prayer if you are willing.  Thanks for reading.

    Heath

Wednesday, 21 November 2007

  • Song of the Redeemed

    Thanksgiving break time.  I'm away from the school, so I can post.

    Isn't it interesting, isn't it sad, to see when we fall?  I know that a popular quote these days is from Batman "why do we fall? so we can get up" or something like that, but i'd rather not fall at all.  Unrealistic, i know, but shouldn't that be the goal?

    How have you been?

    Heath

Thursday, 18 October 2007

  • Intensive

    Well, we're through one quarter at NCC.

    Still enjoying life.  I've recently started attending Benson Church of Christ, and am acting as a kind of temp. youth minister there.  It's great to see how God is setting up what's going on there and moving through my life and the lives of the people serving Him at the church.  It really seems like it's reviving and getting ready to grow.

    I have yet to remove the content from my site that is not allowed.  My music and such.  I'll have to get on that over Christmas break or something. 

    In case you're wondering why i don't update often, Xanga is blocked at the college.  I'm not a fan of that decision... but i have bigger fish to fry, a little thing like that shouldn't get in the way.

    Aside from that life keeps on rockin'.  I can't wait to see what He's got in store for me next.

    Thanks for reading, I'll leave you with this video if you want to watch.  My mentor has been teaching me about people's stories and how important they are to how we relate to them.  He has not only emphisized to me how important it is to know my story and other's stories, but the importance of how those stories intertwine.  So... to be known is to be loved.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q49BbfgJbto

    Heath

Saturday, 01 September 2007

  • NCC

    I recently moved into Nebraska Christian College.

    I'm there studying to serve Him better with my life, and it's great.  Sure there's the usual college woes of homework and stress, but it's amazing to learn for the soul purpose of serving God with my life. 

    Thinking back, I don't imagine i could ever properly thank all the people God has used in my life to guide me to where i am today.  I won't even start to list them, because I know I would miss someone.  So many have been used to mold me, and I know I know I've been used to mold others.  It's amazing how He works for us, and in us.

    Heath

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  • Crusader88
    Someday? that could be forever! lol (wow, there's some double meanings.lolNo rush, just had to tease you.lol
  • Michelle_PT
    Funny Heath. I'll get to it someday...lol.
  • Crusader88
    Well, since i'm the only visitor to my site ( a shame since i used to have some faithful readers) i will just ay that MichellePT should really update.lol She's wonderful don't ya know.
  • Crusader88
    Too bad we can't get that bonny lass of a girlfriend of mine to update.
  • Crusader88
    Hey guys, feel free to write on here and tell me how you like the layout. Forgive me for not posting nearly as often as has sometimes been my habit. NCC has xanga blocked due to some of the bad content on some sites. Heath